The awakening…

Aiight so,  recently I came back from a much needed vacation and although the time away was needed; I must say I was ready to get back to my life. I am most def an advocate for “loggin the fuck off” and am working daily to have the life I never feel a need to vacation from. However vacations always seem to give me a time of reflection. It seems every time I’ve come back from a vacay I come back with a new found outlook on life and how I want to move forward. This early summer vacays take away: “while on the ride, open your eyes”. To some it may sound super  simple but it is something deep down we all need to do a little more of in life. This “Bri-ology” came about while at 6 flags, great America. Yes a theme park helped me get my life this time around.

As a little girl my father and I were the roller coaster champions, in my mind. I always had the heart to get on the biggest coaster but ironically enough I would close my eyes and keep them closed most of the ride, then at the end proclaim… DADDY, THAT WAS FUN!!! Well its been a little over 12 years since I’ve been on a coaster and my father was ready to hit all the new hills and the old ones like old times. Of course I was down but still remained apprehensive, maybe my body couldn’t handle the hills that seemed to touch  the skies and what if it wasn’t as fun as it used to be. Besides I never opened my eyes anyways cause of the tight feeling I always got in my stomach. Well the day of coasters had finally approached and I could tell my father was ready…. way more ready than I, because I  honestly was afraid. I wanted the thrill but not the feeling of my stomach being in my brain after touching the skies. Or worse what if my grown ass threw up?! I just wasn’t ready but deep down inside I was.

So here we were strapped in on my favorite coaster “The Raging Bull”, this coaster first drop gets me everytime yo, like legit would have me ready to reconsider coasters and life at that and of course this is the first one dad is ready to get on. As we are slowly going to the top, a case of anxiety creeps up just as high as the first drop and you guessed it my eyes begin to close as we get closer to the top. Before the  coaster can even reach the top, I let out the loudest scream, to shake my fear and maybe even warn the other riders, I aint ready…. but before I could add the word help to my scream I could feel that we were already at the top and facing downward to plunge to what I felt at that time as a slight death. In this moment I felt like time froze and I could hear my inner little Bri say, Open your eyes and see how far you have come; as afraid as I was, I did just that. I opened my eyes and time remained  so still as I felt as I was flying for the first time. In that moment I could truly see my growth. No from being able to open my eyes on a roller coaster but opening my eyes to life and its opportunities to live it, everyday. Through the ride of life let go and open your eyes. You can see where you have been, where you are currently, and where you are going. In that moment of thrill, take control of every hill and situation and don’t be afraid to face it, head on. That goal you want to meet, that business you want to start, that trip you want to take or that love you want to have; free yourself from fear and open your “eye” to it and continue to conquer the ride, its more fun that way.

Raging Bull

2 thoughts on “The awakening…

  1. I could never be more proud of you then i’am at this moment not only are you educated knowable, wise and gorgeous, you are full of wisdom. You our not my Pumpkin growing you have grown and you are ready to live life unafraid moving forward enjoy life and it’s challenges. Knowing in God you have the (VICTORY) love you forever or always which ever is greater (smiling with you) πŸ˜ŠπŸ’•βš˜πŸ™πŸŽΆπŸŽ‰


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